I actually wrote this over a year ago, and let it languish, unpublished. When I posted it, just now, it went under today's date. So, it's out of order. Sorry!

Okay. You might be wondering where I've been since February. But, if you look back, you can see I'm not a frequent blogger. But, still, you have the right to know why. The why is that I had written a cute post, and I couldn't figure out how to fit the picture in right where I wanted it. Other people seem to be able to do that. But, apparently, this detail of blogging is something I am not able to conquer. So, I decided that if you couldn't see the picture (of my darling granddaughter!), then, you didn't need to read about it. So there. I'll show blogger just how in charge I can be! Ha!

Then, my world kind of disintegrated. In many directions, and it felt like a million pieces. I had things coming at me. Things spewing out of me. Things wrenching me apart. Deadlines to meet. Hard drives crashing. 

I think that, having blogger (and its picture thing) out of my control is a small thing to get upset about, given that there are people all around me who are much more important. It sometimes surprises me how caught up I can get (maybe, we ALL can get) into putting things out there and placing such an importance on them. 

My nephew, years ago, corrected one of his aunts: "No, Aunt Barb, the most important thing is God." She then conceded that her coffee in the morning would then have to be the second most important thing.

Quite honestly, the fact that He is the most important thing in my life is what has gotten me through the rough spots; the down times; the doubting; the questioning. When it gets down to it all, I have to believe that God IS in control. Perhaps for sanity's sake, but mostly, to honor Him and what He has done and is doing in my life. Nothing surprises Him, so when I yell at Him, He's ready to listen. I told someone recently that I truly believe God's shoulders are big enough to handle when I yell at Him because I know His arms are strong enough to hug me and reassure me. If you're wondering about anything, trust Him. He will not fail. The best part is that He will never, ever forsake you, either. Through it all, He has held me together. All things are under His control. 

So, if I could just listen closely enough to get the directions on how to post pictures on blogger . . . .

Wait!

Purple. For promises.

As anyone, I struggle with things. But, I also find it easy, most of the time, to turn away from my struggles and trust that it is all going to work out. I do that easier than others that I know. I thought it was a quirk of my personality. I'm just now beginning to see that it may be my faith. Just plain faith. 
Sure, I've been praying about a couple of things for a long time. A really, long, time. Sometimes I get discouraged. Not necessarily for my sake, though. Mainly because I see others suffering.  Or, continuing to struggle, and OH! how I wish I could make it easier for them. But, I trust that they are  learning at their speed and in His timing. So, I have to stop trying to be the teacher, and just let Him do the guiding. 
It's kind of like I know how the movie ends. I have a nephew who, when he was younger, wanted his mom to see the movie first and tell him about it. That way he knew how it ended when he went to see it. 
Well, I don't know all the details, or the twists in the road. But, I know the end of the book. It all works out for good, for those who love God and are called by Him for His purposes. Yet, some folks struggle. Because they want to know more. Because they are worried about the path. Because they can't see what's happening. But, it isn't faith if we know. Faith requires some struggling to believe and to trust, and move forward even though we can't see. 
God has made promises that I choose to believe. I trust Him, and I smile. There is nothing I can do to effect change but allow Him His way in my life. I'm so thrilled with knowing the One who knows the outcome; Who has the end of the story already written! 
The Bible has many good promises about "waiting on the Lord." I am content to wait.